Dad's poem

 They say it is hard losing a loved one. 

I can confirm that it is true. 

My dad’s love was always there that never, ever withdrew. 

Now that he’s no longer more, 

I shed tears because 

This has shaken me to my core.

I hate the mess he left behind

All sticky and unfair

I must walk away and resign

Does he even care?

Can he see the suffering his actions have brought on

All I want is peace and love

And safety to grieve you, John

Instead, there’s a bad taste in my mouth

That toothpaste and mouthwash can’t fix.

Sunlight falls heavy

I hear voices crying out

I’m feeling more and more unsteady

I stumble in the dark,

Always tripping over the false heart

Dire for the still and silence

Anything to keep them quiet

I get down on my knees for guidance

I ponder the times I felt His grace

The peace, the love, the calm

Though it won't make things erase

It can heal this wounded heart

And no more fall apart.

I have had mountains in my past

Some of them I never thought

The hard climb I could ever do

Including this one that I face

But I can with help of His great grace.